When I feel overwhelmed by my vision and all the actions associated with it, I find myself fantasising about retreating to a cave in the mountains so I can meditate all day and just be. I suppose everyone has their own escapist daydream, and mine seems to have an ascetic flavour…
But when I follow this little fantasy, the realisation I arrive at is this: I am missing the sense of complete freedom and lack of responsibility I had before I decided to devote myself to supporting others in enLIGHTening UP.
And that’s ok. In fact, it’s perfectly fine.
Something I’ve committed to – which makes my life SO much easier – is simply allowing myself to feel how I feel.
I practice unconditional acceptance of what comes up for me, all the odd thoughts and insecurities that show up in my mindscape; I don’t judge ANY of it. They are all allowed to be there.
And that doesn’t mean I need to indulge my escapist fantasy or believe those thoughts! They are just thoughts.
I am constantly amazed by how simple things can be when I don’t make myself wrong-ever. It is one of the elements of self love that transforms my reality everyday.
And if there’s anything I’d love you to experience, it’s this sense of complete permission to BE, as you are, without thinking you should be different.
Even with your quirks and delusions, you are an exquisite being with gifts that the world needs. I’d love for you to join me in trusting that fully. What would that be like for you?
As for the mountain fantasy, I know it’s a sign from my unconscious for me to relax and be conscious of how I am being… I am producing a quite a bit right now but I can still do that in balance with giving myself what I need to feel free – spaciousness.
Consider what you fantasise about… What might your deeper Self be asking for? And how can you honour the feeling underneath?